hey!

omg I haven't written a blog entry since june 2007 or something. hahaha that's how exciting my life has been since then, i suppose. well.... i guess a couple of things have happened...:

for a start, we all became year 12's... v.v  and became exposed to the true suckiness of the sydney girls high school community. somehow, every time exam periods come around, i always end up feeling about 500000 times dumber than usual. cos when you get results back, and you get.. well, i got a 12.5/15 for a modern history speech. and i went to cooke and she was like, "yes, sarah.. so what do you think happened there?" in this voice like somebody had died, or as if i'd committed some unspeakable crime. yeh.. being at sghs is really great for your self esteem. and don't even get me started on the stupid ranking system. at scots, i know that they abolished the accursed ranking system, cos they felt that it put unnecessary pressure on the boys, and made them feel crap at something they possibly weren't crap at. but apparently our school is all for putitng unnecessary pressure on people, and making them feel crap at things that they're possibly not crap at. i bet all the teachers sit there and laugh at us. it could very well be their only form of entertainment.

and there is yet another reason to dislike all the juniors... all the year 7s and 8s learning how to do algebra, and how to gather like terms, and how the circle stands for degrees, and the line stands for minutes. i don't understand how we could have ever, ever complained about our school life as juniors. i really don't. but then again... one day i'll probably turn around and say "i don't understand how we could have ever, ever complained so much about year 12 and the hsc. i really don't."

but living in the present,  school is crap and i can't wait to leave.

and i can't actually remember all the stuff that's happened since june last year... um... people have gone on holidays to distant, faraway places such as melbourne and perth... most of us are scrounging for money cos we're broke... ummm... the ski season starts in about three months and i'm already looking forward to it xD  i've also had two failed relationships.. but that's about all you need to know about that.

jennyya and i went to a grammar versus sydney girls debate last nite, since i was invited by josh... it was actually pretty interesting. but the sad thing is, there were three supporters for each side. and one of the supporters for sghs was ordell. so basically, it was just jj and me. sad, right? and apparently it's always like that...  *sigh* poor debaters... and i thought rowing had bad support... >_>

and um... yeh..i've probably left out one or two big major events which've escaped through my sieve-like memory.. sorry v.v  all i remember about year 11 was that you could fail pretty much everything and it didn't matter. i failed both 3-unit math assessments, and one latin assessment, and i laughed about it. if i actually failed something now, i'd probably cry, kiss my uai goodbye, and then get over it cos there are more important things in life. -__- but my mother tells me i'm not meant to think like that. apparently she wants me to put every fibre of my being into my school exams. um, yah. not gonna happen. wait, no, she said that i needed to find a "balance". and her idea of a balance is having an hour of study for every hour of recreation, or something like that. when she told me, i was like, "you've gotta be kidding". i asked her once whether sleeping hours counted as recreational time, and she got really annoyed at me. our relationship has been kinda deteriorating lately... small issues turn into world wars. >_> anyways.

this year it seems like we're all living from exam period to exam period.... they're all so close together, you finish one set of exams, have a week or two to unwind and relax, and then you have to start preparing for the next set of exams. in junior years, you'd do your exams, and then spend whatever time was left in the term bludging around, taking random days off, playing cards under the table, and basically not paying attention to anything. *sigh* those were the days...

anyyways... i should probably go now. one of my mother's friends is coming over, and i'm expected to stick around and play the obedient daughter.

*hugz hugz* luv u all! baibai!

hello!

   nyaa, i haven't updated for a while... i've taken to keeping a diary again... while i was blogging more, i wrote in my diary less, but now that i'm writing in my diary, i don't blog. guess i can't have the best of both worlds... either that and i'm just lazy and can't be bothered repeating myself in two places. probably the latter..

   anyway. i'm just blogging today cos it was a choice between this, or doing my latin homework. pretty tough call, but... blogging wins. (^ - ^)\\//  heheheh...

   um, well, today i went running again for the first time in three weeks. I was going so well, and then for some reason i stopped. And today i went again and i nearly died. for some purely idiotic reason, i chose to run with the higher-level group, and i kept up pretty well until the coaching guy was like, "okay, this next bit is three hundred metres, and i want you all to sprint it". i was just like, that is NOT going to happen today. so, thankfully the place where i decided to call it quits was really close to my house, so i went home. i'd already ran about 5 kilometers, dammit!! i was not about to kill myself doing a three hundred metre sprint. it's not my fault that i'm not as fit as boys who do about 4 other sports. >.<"

   what else is there..? working at KFC is still fun, school is still boring... but camp is coming up, so that should be fun. oh, and i'm pretty much over Sofa. i realised the other day that since the time that i told him that i liked him, and him asking me to go to dinner with him and then forgetting about it, he hasn't even mentioned anything in passing, and it's been over a month. no apology or even a rejection[which, in my opinion, is much better than feeling that you've been forgotten/you don't really matter]. so... he doesn't like me. and i'm not going to change my personality for him, so... *sigh* that's that ^^  *waves* baibai sofa. ^^ and it's nice, cos now i don't get depressed when i think about what happened =)

  anyway... i can't believe that we're halfway through the year already.. it's kind of scary. in a bit over 10 weeks, we'll be in year twelve, and stuff'll actually start to COUNT towards things. gah, and my study skills still suck[allitteration!XD] not that knowing that will make me listen any harder at the study skills camp. all they'll do is give us color-coded booklets and tell us that "everyone studies differently. you just have to find a way that works for you. don't stress out if other people study differently to you. everybody is different. try a few of these techniques..." etc etc. and then they'll probably tell us that if we find a way that really suits us, studying might become more enjoyable. and everyone will laugh at them. XD

   Oh, today in chamber we played this concerto, and because there's meant to be a minimal amount of people per part[since it's meant to resemble actual chamber music], i ended up playing the freaking violin FIVE part with bridget. which was actually the viola two part transposed from alto. it's not like it's really,really easy or anything, but seriously. do they really think it boosts our self-confidence if they stick us in violin five...? it's seriously degrading. =(  i know i've gotten a lot worse since i left America, but still... violin five. -_______-" why would they do such a thing...? *sigh*... well, it could be worse. there could've been thirteen parts or something... 

   so yes. my life is still pretty boring.. oh, but my parents say that we might be going to America in the christmas holidays, so that'd be really fun, even though i don't think Elizabeth'd be able to smuggle me into school again... it didn't work very well last time... heheh ^^;; but i hope i'll get to see everyone if we end up going! =)

   anyway... i guess i really snould do my latin homework, as much as it pains me. so... *hugz hugz hugz* luv u all!!! baibai!

hello!

one more thing about myles before i stop depressing you all. i went to the funeral on friday afternoon, and you know, everyone was sad, and the grownups were sniffing and there were flowers and school friends[he went to the cathedral school near town hall... st. andrews...?] and it was really sad =(  i felt terrible for his brother and his family... i think their sadness was kinda beyond crying by then. but i saw his best friend there as well; his very best friend in the world. and out of all the people there [apart from myles], the thing that made me cry the most was to see this fourteen year old kid[myles was fourteen. i lied. i thought he was fifteen] crying his heart out for his best friend. it was so, so sad. and myles's dad was hugging him and going "it's going to be okay. It's going to be okay", even though it wasn't true. but this kid was like, inconsolable. and i just can't emphasize enough how heartbreaking it was.

and then i started thinking... what if it was one of MY friends in that casket? what if it was my friend of seven years[u noe who u are], or someone from 10ve, or one of my friends in America? and thinking about it really put that kid's grief into perspective. so... *sniff* don't any of you go anywhere *glare glare glare* cos i love u all too much.  :D

so... *hugs to fill up all the times when i should've hugged u but didn't* luv u all!!! baibai!

my half-ish cousin myles died today. at fifteen years of age. from leukemia. i'd only actually seen him twice, and those times were only recently[before that, i didn't know that he existed], but it makes me want to cry. he hadn't even been able to start living properly, you know? like, getting out into the world and doing things for himself. i think he had dreams of being a sports star or something, cos if i know one thing about him, it's that he loved sport [his brother is the studious one who wants a socialist society]. and god, his parents must be going through hell right now. i can't even imagine. i mean, they knew it was coming and everything, but... it must be such an unbelievably horrible feeling.  i can't really imagine dying. well, except for when i'm really old, but you're meant to die when you're really old. and by then, i guess, if you die of natural causes, it just happens, and you don't know anything of it. but he was fifteen and waiting to die. i would have been so scared in his position, i swear. just knowing that maybe next week, or even tomorrow, you wouldn't be alive anymore. it just really scares me. what would you do in that position? and myles was really in too much pain, and was too weak to really live out his last days. so yes... it's probably a good thing in a way, cos at least now he's not suffering. but it really breaks your heart. and you've just gotta ask why these things have to happen.

and i know that christian people are meant to believe that everything that happens happens for a reason, and that god has some great ultimate plan, but it's times like these when i just feel like screaming at him, "your plan sucks! how is this helping anybody?!?" it's hard to believe in god sometimes. and i'm always wondering whether there's really anybody up there, what with all the tragedies that are always happening. i just don't see how they help anybody or anything [which probably makes me a really bad christian, but whatever. i'm not worried abou that right now].

so i'm sorry if that was a depressing entry, but i had to put it somewhere. keeping it to myself isn't really good enough.

*hugz hugz hugz* i know i don't say it nearly enough, but i luv u all. baibai

hellooo!!!!

firstly, i would like to just mention that this vacation has gone way too fast. at the beginning, it was just like, "nyeh, whatever, there's plenty of time to do things.." and now, it's more like, "crap, there's only one week left!!!! how can i make the most of my precious seven days of freedom??" >_< dont want to go back to school. at all. but going back to school means that i get to see everyone every day, so... i guess i want to go back if only for that. ^^

well, so far... what have i done...?

1) worked.

2) slept.

3) worked.

4) slept.

5) worked.

6) went to jamberoo with someone who belongs in a psychiatric ward. [see entry about it on jennyya's blog]

7) made birthday cards for people whose birthdays aren't for quite some time yet. i was bored.

8)went ice skating with giraffe and clarisse

9) went to boat camp.

which brings me to my next topic:

BOAT CAMP 2007. WHERE YOU MUST SLEEP EARLY OR DIE.

here was our standard routine:

5:30am- wake up, get dressed, apply tons and tons of sunscreen.

6:00am- be at boats ready to carry them down this huge steep hill to the most retarded pontoon ever built by anyone.

6:15-about 7:30- row in a four, for at least 10 kilometers.

7:30-7:45- carry boats back up huge steep hill to resting place.

7:45-about 9:00- walk back to log cabin[which is actually made of brick], enjoy the air conditioning, eat breakfast.

9:00-9:30- rest/finish eating things

9:30-9:45- apply more sunscreen, find hat, desperately try and be cooled by air conditioning for a few more minutes, etc.

9:45-10- walk back to landing spot for boats, carry them down the huge steep hill again.

10-about 12- row in single sculls up to the narrows and back[ about another 10km].

12-12:45- carry boats back up, go back to hotel, etc.

12:45-1:30- refresh, eat lunch.

1:30-4:30- SLEEP.

4:30-5- complain while applying yet more sunscreen and walking back over to the boats.

5-6:30- do all the stuff with the boats, row for at least 10km.

6:30-7: carry boats back up for the night. walk back to hotel.

7-7:30- rest.

7:30-8- eat dinner.

8-get ready for bed. by 9:30, most everyone sleeps.

and that's it. that was the standard routine for five days. on day 6, there was a 3km single sculling time trial thing. but whatever. each day, we rowed at least 30km. at least. i nearly died. i pretty much became a zombie. but at least after a while the coaches figured out that we could leave our boats down on this grassy area near the retarded pontoon, so that we didn't have to lug them all the way up and down a stupid huge steep hill 3 times a day. so yes... it was pretty exhausting, to say the least. but i think it helped everyone to focus more on technique and stuff, so we all ended up improving in at least one area. which was good. at the end of the day. at the very end. >_< and i hit a duck with my oar. >_< but it just swam away. eddie killed a duck with her oar. she said she hit it and it just didn't come back up to the surface again. O_O half of me was like, "that's so sad!!!" and the other half was "why didn't it just move when it saw a big white boat coming towards it...?" nyeh... anyway.

i think i'll finish up now... i hope that everyone has enjoyed their vacation so far!! for people who are overseas/are going overseas, please keep safe!!! [and buy me something with monokuroboo on it... bwahahahaha... nah, jks.]. and hopefully i will see u all soon!!!

and if emily or elizabeth read this entry, i'm so happy you got my card/letter!!! i was really worried that it'd get lost in the mail, and that you'd think i was a negligent friend. =*(   so yeh.... hope that you are all keeping safe over there too!!! i'll try to come and visit this year.. maybe at the end of the year or in june/july... we'll see. i miss u all, by the way!!! =(

*hugz hugz hugz* luv u all!!! baibai!

hiii!!!

omg, it's only the second day of vacation, but i'm bored already!!! >.<" you know that you have no life when you sit around and wish that your phone would ring. so bored!!!this morning i woke up, tried to get my brain functioning [kinda hard to do when the sun hasn't even come up yet], went to rowing, came back from rowing, ate my breakfast, and from about 11:00 onwards was upstairs sleeping/reading/listening to music/wishing that my phone would ring/wishing it was yesterday again. it's relaxing, but boring at the same time.

yes, i wish it was yesterday again!!! it was so fun!!! i'd totally forgotten how much fun it is to go to the beach!!! <3 <3 <3 it was really great to see everyone together! and thank you for my manga!! much appreciated!! only um... i need the reciept from someone[plz tell me you have it!] cos um... it only registered when i got home, but... i need to return volume 2 and get volume 6 instead... sorry!!!!! i can't remember if i said 1, 2 and 5 or 1, 5 and 6... i probably said one and then changed it to the other... *sighs* but yes... sorry!!! >.<

anyway, the beach was really fun... it started off as a really crappy beach day, but it turned out really nice!! and to think a certain someone didn't actually want to come... *cough bnuzib cough*. heheheheh, i bet there's some happy hobo up at bondi right now enjoying his vanilla coke... ahahahaha... ^^ i mean... =( ... yeh... the food was all good [there was so much of it!!] swimming was really fun as well! the water wasn't freezing! heheheheh... so yes. in the end it was perfect. lots of friends, light sand[heheh, not white, as such], blue skies, beach umbrella tilted the way that they do it on postcard photos... hehehehehe... ^^ hope everyone else had as much fun!

oh, btw jennyya, i think that you freaked giraffe out a little with your whole voice comment thing[so untrue!!! i've never done it around sofa, and sofa's well... he's sofa!!! if i had, haeran would've totally picked up on it XD], and your not-so-subtle chinese whisper stuff. -__-" he was kinda weird-ish bordering on cold on msn. go die. XD

annyway...

i get my job back on monday!!! i'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!! i actually might have some money to buy christmas presents!! i think i'll work for the whole week straight, if i can... at least 5 hours each day from monday to saturday if i can. that'd be good... ^^

oh yeah, we went bowling for the KFC christmas party! which was really fun except for one thing... can u possibly guess what it was? *sighs* whatever. so not worth my time. but i got one strike and a spare. ^^ yay!! i <3 bowling as well, even when i throw gutterballs. ^^;;

aaand... i feel like i'm forgetting something... oh yeh. school certificate. i found out that if i had gotten ONE more mark for my history exam, i would've gotten a band five... ONE MARK!!!!!! i think i was happier not knowing that... before with my band four, i was just like, "nyeh, who cares???" but now i know that had i scraped just ONE MORE MARK i would've had a BAND FIVE!!!! and then i could've said that i didn't get anything under a band five!!!!! but i can't!!! cos i missed out on one mark and now have to suffer with the knowledge that i 'was one mark away from a stupid band five!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<" *breathes* i'm okay...

anyways, that's everything for now!! happy holidays, everyone! ^^

*hugz hugz hugz* luv ya!! baibai!

hello!!!

well, just thought that i'd let u all know that... i now have braces!! they are light blue in color, and are not yet painful. although everyone assures me that the pain starts the day after you get them on, so... thanks, everyone... XD but i am on the way to straight teeth!! by the middle of next year i should be able to notice big-ish changes... they'll be off in 18 months. which really isn't that long, i suppose... but i can't eat properly!!! i can't bite my teeth together properly, so i kind of just... well... swallow my food. *sighs* all the joy has been taken out of eating.. it's too difficult! and apparently i am not allowed to eat gum, toffee or chewy candy. nothing was said about chocolate, though. bwahahahaha... XD

and um... well, our formal was on sunday. photos are on jennybutts blog [ i cant be bothered]. everyone looked so amazing!! <3 <3 <3 and apart from the fact that the room was waaaay too small to accommodate over 100 people, and the fact that the food was kinda crap, and the fact that the dancefloor was like, 3 meters by 3 meters, it was a pretty fun night. being out with your friends and all that. and whatever, the dancefloor served its purpose well. and we actually had a dj who knew what he was doing!!! O_O  i never thought i'd see the day.

practically everyone was dressed in either red or black, though... >_<" i'm happy now that i went with a patterned dress instead of plain, even if it was red. i still wish that someone had come as my date, but.. no matter. ^^;; i'll bet that he hasn't given it a second thought, so i shouldn't, either [technically speaking...]

aaaaaanyways, that's it... except for the fact that i am out of work for... about... 4 weeks now. i passed KFC the other day, and the door was open and you could see the people working inside, and i wanted to go in and scream "CANT U RENOVATE ANY FASTER?!?!?!?! HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO RE-DO A FRONT COUNTER?!?!?! SOME OF US NEED BE BACK AT WORK!!!!!" and anyway, i miss all the people i work with T^T except for one person who drives me up the wall. but whatever. it doesn't actually count as a person... let's call it an alien.-> ...o(O_O)o...

that's all from me today!!! *hugz hugz hugz* luv ya! baibai! 

ello! i have stolen jj's quiz cos i am bored. ahahahahahahaha....

yay, i'm done!!!!!! fufufufufufufufuaahahahahahahahaha. *hugz hugz* luv ya! baibai!
 

ello!!!

ahahaha, i havent blogged in aaaaaaages. ah well. and incase you're wondering about the title of my entry.. well... hahahahaha=fufufufufu in japanese. so yeh. hmm...

i went skiing um... 2 weekeneds ago. and it was fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i went for 3 days, and um.. yeh, it was fun!! the whole mountain was really really big, and there were lots and lots of different trails, and i couldn't go on the doubleblack diamond, cos it was closed. *tear* but i'll take bristol any day. ^^

and um... well, yesterday, i think i got my all time lowest score on a math test ever. so yeh.. new record... *sighs* i actually studied for this one, and i still screwed it up. >_>

and uh... i'm going bowling and dinner-eating tomorrow with the year 10 rowing people + coaches... it should be fun!

aaaaaand... IM READING HUNTERxHUNTER RIGHT NOW AND THE NEW VOLUME IS OUT AND IM GONNA GO AND BUY IT AND THE ANIME IS ACTUALLY OKAY EVEN THOUGH KURAPICA SOUNDS LIKE A GIRL BUT HE IS STILL THE BEST CHARACTER IN THE WHOLE THING AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ahahaha, yes, hunterxhunter is now in my top 5 favorite manga series. first still being fruits basket, of course. and then DNAngel and then Ranma 1/2, and then... maybe tokyo mew mew, just cos it's so adorable ^^

and that's about it right now... life is pretty slow right now.. too much school... and we have finals in like, a month. *Sighs* and i haven't even started studying yet... but then after finals, it'll be almost complete relaxation, due to the fact that the school certificate is apparently the easiest thing ever. (but i still don't think that it should be mandatory!!!)

oh, before i go, i would like to place a horrible, horrible curse on my orthodontist and her stupid plans.  >_> *evil glare*

*hugz hugz hugz* luv ya!!!!!!!!!! baibai!

hi!

I HATE ATHLETICS CARNIVALS EVEN MORE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! it SAID, on the stupid stupid note, that even if it was raining, THE CARNIVAL WOULD STILL BE On!!!! but apparently it was secret code for "if it rains, the carnival will still be on. but if it is a certain TYPE of rain falling from the sky, the carnival will be cancelled, unknownst to about 3/4 of the school". i say 3/4 cos about 1/4 of the school doesn't turn up. ehehehehe... anyhow...

practically noone came to school prepared for.. well, school, cos the athletics carnival was meant to be on!!! so it was a completely pointless day. absolutely pointless. at some point in the day, uh... a couple of us may have uh... gone to someone's house, with some other people who weren't planning to go to the carnival in the first place... ^^;; but i'm just saying that it MIGHT have happened... as if we would do anything like that. ^^

anyhow... one more thing... last sunday was freakin' great. i'm starting to think that he might get to like me as a sort of friend("sort of", cos we only see eachother once a week). which... *sigh*... i guess is fine. having him as more of a friend would be nice. ^^  so yes.. thats all.

*hugz hugz hugz* luv ya!!!! baibai!!!